Saturday, April 15, 2017

A day in the life...

Since I spend the vast majority of my time in the lab, I figured it would be nice to show a little bit of what I do each day.

My current research project is focused on a pediatric cancer called neuroblastoma.  The survival rates of this type of cancer are really low and there aren't really any good treatment options for these kids (especially if the tumor has relapsed or metastasized).  In my internship, I'm trying to determine if certain genetic mutations make the cells more sensitive to certain drugs.  To do this, I grow cells in petri dishes and use them for my experiments.  Growing cancer cells is a lot like having a pet...or a kid.  They need to be fed and watered, and they never stop growing! In this video I introduce you to the basics of growing cells in a lab. Enjoy! 






Saturday, February 4, 2017

The Lake District

I have one last summer 2016 adventure to share before I start blogging in real-time again.  Truth is, I’ve been holding off on this post because I’m not entirely sure how to put my experience into words.  Sometimes, it’s hard to be completely honest with my feelings when sharing my stories on the blog. There’s some unspoken blogging rule that when talking about travel adventures everything must be rainbows and unicorns and when it doesn’t work out as planned, you gloss over the dirty details.  Well, I’m going to break that stigma now and share with you one of the worst holidays I’ve ever taken. 

Between my trip to Canada and Portugal, I spent 5 days hiking in the Lake District-- a rather large National Park north of Manchester in the UK.  It had never really been on my list of places to go until Jasper had shared some of his pictures with me.  The landscape was absolutely stunning! In addition, it seemed like such a great place to hike.  There are small villages scattered throughout the park that you can easily walk from place to place within a day.  Added bonus are all the pubs! There was no need to carry any food which was a very attractive idea.  I didn’t think this trip would be something I did right away until I got chatting with a friend who lives in the UK.  She was itching to experience some hiking and thought the Lake District was a wonderful adventure we could go on together.  Before we knew it, flights/trains were booked and we were set to hike together for a few days.  Unfortunately, Natalie couldn’t get the extra time off work, so she was only joining for the weekend and I was going to be alone for the remainder of the trip.  I was looking forward to experiencing solo travel and was super excited to experience the beauty of the Lake District. 

Life threw me my first lemon the second we entered the National Park. You see, I knew we’d be out in the boonies but I expected the little towns in between to be more like functioning little towns instead of two or three houses. Essentially this translated into nonexistent cellphone reception which normally is no bother for me. I’m usually the person who forgets their phone everywhere because I just don’t care. Except this time. Being that Natalie and I didn’t have a solid itinerary beforehand and the fact that I was hiking alone after Natalie left, I had promised to keep Sander super up-to-date with what was going on. Kinda hard when reception is ridiculous and stressful when you’re receiving his somewhat panicked “I haven’t heard from you at all, are you okay?” messages without being able to respond to them!

I pushed it out of my mind for the night and woke up ready to hike the next day. That is until I read his other messages wondering if everything was okay.  I was hoping to send a message sometime that day, but that chance never came. I was absolutely obsessed with finding reception all day long but had absolutely no luck.  I was feeling quite anxious about it and in the end it sort of tainted my enjoyment of hiking for the day because I could not just push it out of my mind.

That aside though, our first day of hiking was epic. And overly ambitious. Initially we planned on doing these hikes over two days, but we (maybe just me?) didn’t want to hike with our backpacks. After trekking through the Rockies with it, I was so over the whole point-to-point aspect of hiking. Sander and I did 25km with 30+lbs on our backs, so I figured 30ish kilometers would be fine with just day packs. I mean, people run 42km all at once, right? Well, turns out we weren’t quite cut out for it.

I was pretty much done at the half way point, and we hadn’t even covered the hard part yet. Don’t get me wrong, it was beautiful and I loved it, but I was tired (not to mentioned jetlagged because this was the day after I had flown back to Europe) and we still had two steep ascents left. Apparently jetlag and hiking aren’t a good mix. Lesson learned. We meandered through Wasdale Head, grabbed an amazing cappuccino, and hit the trail again. In the wrong direction. I have a few major complaints about the Lake District and their ridiculous trails is one of them. NONE of them are marked. There is no sign at the trail head saying “Black Sail Pass this way” or anything of the sort. Luckily I had a trail map and I’m pretty alright at reading them (if I'm paying attention), but the lack of signage was annoying. And tiring.  One time, we had hiked over 2km in before I realized that the river was on our right and it should be on our left. We tried fording it, but it was just too wide and deep. We couldn’t find a good access point, so we ended up turning around and going back. So that added extra time and took extra energy. Annoying, but not a big deal, we still had plenty of daylight left. My only concern was getting a message to Sander asap and it appeared that I was out of luck anyway.

So, on we went. We totally owned the crazy ascent and grabbed an energy bar to celebrate. We were ready to head on when we had realized the trail was not visible. We got to the top and it just disappeared. No sign, no markers, no nothing. We tried going this way, that way, this way again, and then eventually using the map and geography around us, we decided that we needed to go straight ahead.....down a massive massive descent....where there was no trail at all. But we knew we needed to go that way! So we took the chance. When we rounded the corner and saw the Black Sail Hut, I was so relieved. That’s the second time in my life that I was beyond relieved the see a hut. Being stuck in the middle of nowhere, unsure whether you’re walking the right way and knowing that you absolutely cannot turn back because it’s too far is not a cool feeling.

Anyway, we finally made it to the main road and there was a little food cart at the bottom. We got some juice and rested for a moment while chatting with some locals. I was on a hunt for wifi or reception and I was asking locals what my best bet was. Apparently I had no chance, which just made my heart sink even further. They couldn’t believe we were planning on walking to Seatoller, but we had missed the bus and had no other option. The lady insisted that we were insane and suggested trying to lift a ride along the way. She said it was a steep and long walk back to camp. We walked for about 5 minutes before I saw a warning sign mentioning that the road is only suitable for vehicles that can handle 25% grade. TWENTY FIVE PERCENT. That’s steep in case you didn’t know. After seeing that, feeling our fatigue and me freaking out more about messaging Sander, we decided to hitchhike. We let the first vehicle pass because we were too chicken to do it, but vowed that the next one we would stick out our thumbs. We heard the vehicle coming up behind us, threw out our thumbs and guess who pulled up beside us and yelled hop in? The lady we were talking with earlier! She said she just couldn’t go home knowing we were out there walking 10 more kilometers. We were forever grateful for her generosity. It really did save us some time and some energy of what energy we actually had left.

She dropped us off at our camp and we continued walking straight to the pub to grab some dinner and hopefully some reception or wifi for me. As we were walking there, I got “It has been over 24 hours and I still haven’t heard anything from you. Are you okay? Please message me” from Sander. Well, that was just the end of it for me. I was on the verge of a breakdown. I made it my mission to find wifi even if I had to pay. We went into the hotel next to the pub and I explained myself and asked if I could have the wifi password. No. Not even if I paid for it. At that point, I was just standing there trying to think of another option and then all of a sudden the lady said “Borrowdale. All upper case. And don’t come back here tomorrow because I will get in trouble”. At that point, I just burst into tears and thanked her.  After messaging Sander and letting him know that I was alive and that reception was awful we headed to the pub for a well-earned burger and pint of beer.  We had an awesome visit, made a plan for the next day and hit the hay early.

The next day, the weather took a turn for the worse. Like much, much, much worse. We packed up our tent in the rain and made our way to Rydal Water. We set up our tent, in the rain of course, had lunch and packed our day packs. The weather sucked, but we weren’t going to let it get us down. We were hiking Helvellyn– one of the highest peaks in England with a pretty stellar view.

Right when we got to the trailhead, the rain let up and the sun came out! It was gorgeous. We did a super duper happy dance and marched uphill. And then it started drizzling.  And then it started pouring. And then it got super windy. And then it started raining even harder. FYI, wind + rain = soaked to the bone. What kept me going was the view at the end.  I was so excited to enjoy this view:



But instead, this is what we saw:





It was such a huge disappointment. But we did it. We persevered and I was proud of us for it. It wasn’t the easiest climb, nor the easiest descent. It was so cold, so windy and so rainy. We were both soaked and just wanted to be warm again.  Little did we know that the most challenging part of the hike was still ahead of us.

By the time we got down, it was POURING. I know I’ve been saying it was pouring the whole time, but this time it was absolutely dumping buckets on our heads. We were seriously soaked all the way through. We went to the bus stop to wait when we decided to check how long we had still. According to the booklet we had, we knew that the last bus was at 19:45 up the road from us. We checked the times on the post at the stop, and it said the last bus was at 17:50. I looked at my watch, 18:21. My heart sank. How can the booklet be wrong!?! I figured it had to be old schedule posted at the bus stop. So I checked the fine print: “Updated 04/07/2016”. And my heart sunk even further. I refused to believe it. There was no way we were stuck out there. But the reality was sinking in. We were stuck. We were about 25km away from our campsite. It was pouring rain. We were both shivering. There was no reception. No pay phone. There was no footpath or even a shoulder on the side of the road to walk on. It was only an afternoon hike so we had no extra food. No lights. Nothing. As this sunk in, I still refused to believe there was no bus coming. How could the booklet be wrong!? We weren’t stupid hikers. We had checked the last bus times to make sure this wasn’t going to happen. We had a turnaround time that we were well ahead of.  Yet, there we stood, water gathering in our boots, freaking out. Pretty sure at some point, I started yelling out of frustration. It was like everything that could have gone wrong went wrong. And with our luck, we’d end up hitchhiking with a serial killer and dying on this trip.

At this point, it was 18:45 and according to the booklet, there was a bus stopping up the road at that time. I proposed waiting until 19:00 before officially freaking out and giving up on the idea of there being a bus. In the meantime, we were trying to hitch a ride with someone. We didn’t really care how we got to our campsite, we just needed to get there or at least to the closest town where we could call for a taxi or something. It was getting late and there weren’t going to be many cars passing for much longer. Not to mention it was getting dark and we had no lights. Walking on the side of a windy, narrow road with no shoulder at night with no lights sounds like the second way we could have died on this trip.

A bunch of cars passed, and no one would stop for us. I was beginning to get really really really worried. My heart was in my throat and every bad thing that could happen was going through my head.  And then we heard another vehicle coming. A big one. A truck maybe? Or a bus? I just remember chanting “please be a bus, please be a bus, please be a bus, please be a bus” over and over. When it came up the hill and we saw the glowing 555 along the top, we both cheered and began waving our arms in the air while laughing giddily. It was one of those moments where you either laughed or cried, and apparently we decided to laugh. We were so incredibly relieved that we weren’t stranded!

Eventually we got to our campsite, grabbed our stuff and took a nice long hot shower. This was followed by a traditional English roast dinner in the pub and the most amazing sleep ever.

The next day, I woke up and was immediately greeted by the pounding rain on our tent. It had not let up. At all.

After waiting and waiting to see if it would ease, we decided to just get on with the day. I decided to stay at that campground after Natalie was gone. There were hot showers, a nice pub with free wifi and that way I didn’t have to pack up my tent in the rain. Win, win, win as far as I was concerned. Our plan was to walk to the next town where Natalie would catch her bus to the train to go home. Within 3 minutes, we were both soaked. It was pouring rain so hard. Natalie decided to take the bus all the way instead, and I headed to the pub for a coffee and some wifi to see if the weather was supposed to get better. It wasn’t.

I was so over the whole trip. I just wanted to go home. My hiking boots were giant puddles, all my hiking clothes were soaked, everything else was damp, I was afraid to take the bus anywhere because who knows if it’s actually going to show up and the trails, well, if they’re actually marked, good luck navigating them.

I was not having fun. Not in the slightest bit.

I was whatsapping Sander when he suggested I come home early. I looked up the cost to change my flight and decided to go for it. I was one more bad experience away from having a total meltdown. What’s the point in traveling if you just aren’t having fun? I’m usually able to see the good things in a bad situation, but this time, I just couldn’t keep myself afloat with happy thoughts.  I rebooked and was very excited to be heading home early. I hid in my tent for the rest of the day drinking the delicious beers Natalie brought for me, reading my book, listening to pod casts and napping. Around 6pm the rain finally eased to a drizzle and I went out for a short walk. The sun actually came out for a bit and it was gorgeous. Combined with knowing I was heading home the next day, it totally lifted my spirits.

I woke up the next morning to more rain. Packed up my stuff (and nearly 2kg of water) and got out of there.

All in all, the Lake District was probably one of the worst holidays I’ve ever gone on. Some of it was my own fault, but most of it was out of my control and apparently I just couldn’t cope this time around.  I don’t regret the trip by any means but I also don’t regret going home early. Sometimes you just have to admit to yourself that enough is enough and take the experience as a life lesson.  In hindsight it wasn't all that bad and I can now laugh at myself for being such a wuss. 

   
             




Friday, December 16, 2016

Skyline Trail

Wow! Sometimes time just gets away from me.  I cannot believe I haven't written since September!

This semester, I got to pick my own courses instead of just doing the required ones.  I was pretty excited about it and instantly honed in on a genetics course.  It was new and something I thought was interesting.  For my second course, I picked an immunology course.  Me and immunology go way back and we're not exactly friends.  I've never had a huge passion for the subject but it's very important in the field of cancer treatment, so I figured I owed it to myself to do this course and not avoid it simply because I don't love it.  

Little did I know that I had set myself up for a really tough semester.  Pro tip: don't take a master's level genetics course when you have no genetics background.  And if you want to have a fun semester, don't choose a class you know nothing about and a class that you don't particularly love! 

In the end, it was a very very challenging couple months. But I survived!  And I might go as far as saying I actually like immunology now. Since then, I've been working on a literature review and have had a couple special visitors from Canada.  At the rate I'm going I'll probably write about it sometime in July, but for now, I'm finally ready to write an awesome blog post about mine and Sander's adventure on the Skyline Trail.

Hiking the ST was sort of like running a long distance race...but without the running part.  At first, I loved every single step, then I just wanted it to be over and by the end, I was completely high from what we had just accomplished.

Let me start from the beginning.

The ST has been on my bucket list for years.  It's a 45km trek that starts at Maligne Lake in Jasper.  You need to reserve campsites months in advance because the biggest campsite along the trail only accommodates 8 tents.  When we booked our trip to Canada for the summer, I hopped online immediately to reserve spots for this trip.  To my disappointment, the ideal campsites had already been booked but there was room at Snowbowl (12km in) and Signal (37km in).  Even though it wasn't ideal, we reserved the sites and vowed to get the details sorted out later.

Turns out later never really happened.  We were to spend two nights on the trail (Sunday and Monday) and thought we'd just spend the night in Jasper on the Saturday before starting the hike.  What we failed to realize though was that this was the Canada Day long weekend and there was absolutely nothing available for us! Ooops.  We only had 12km to hike on the first day so we decided to just drive to Jasper super early and start hiking that day. It was the beginning of July so even if we started hiking at 3 in the afternoon we'd have plenty of sunlight to get to our first campsite.

The day before our trip we headed over to Campers Village and bought bear spray, bangers, flares, bells, whistles, water treatment tablets, a map, a first aid kit and basically everything you could need to be safe on the trail.  Then we went to the grocery store and bought the lightest most calorie dense foods we could find and made Day 1, Day 2 and Day 3 food packets.  We packed our bags, loaded our water, weighed in around 30lbs each and were ready to hike! After sucking so badly on planning the trip, we were pretty darn organized with the packing part of it! 

Sunday, we were up early and on the road by 6:30am.  The entire drive there, it poured and poured and poured.  Lucky for us, it has eased to a nice drizzle and we embarked on our adventure dry and ready for an awesome hike.

The first day of hiking was really enjoyable.  The elevation gain was gentle, the scenery was beautiful, the weather was perfect and we were warm and excited!








The highlight of the first day was me falling into the river.  Yup.  Leave it to me to wear through both pairs of hiking socks within the first 5K! The saddest thing was that there was even a bridge to cross! Don't know how I danced for so long because let's face it, we all know I'm not the most graceful person!



On the second day, the challenge began.  The ST is pretty famous for it's views for one main reason: the majority of the hike is above the treeline.  It's true, the views are ah-mazing, but what every online source failed to mention is exactly how cold and windy it is up there.  We knew it'd be cold, but we weren't quite expecting below 0 temperatures overnight.  Needless to say, it was a chilly sleep with few zzzz's caught.  We woke up tired, stiff from the cold and 30 pound packs we weren't used to carrying and a bit uncertain about the distance we had to travel that day. Due to our poor planning, we had 25km to cover.  But we remained optimistic and hit the trail bright eyed and busy tailed for a great day in the wilderness.

After a short climb, we crossed Big Shovel Pass and started working our way to Lake Curator.  We stood at the top of the pass admiring the amazing views (pictured below) and slowly descended down the other side of the mountain.  This is when the challenge really began.  Shortly after we crossed the pass, it started getting windy and I don't mean a strong breeze.  I mean wind.  I'm talking gusts that nearly knocked you off your feet! I'm talking wind so strong that Sander and I could barely hear each other talking.  It was cold and to make things even more awesome, we were getting sort of tired.  We aren't used to hiking with packs and to top it off, this was the first hike of the season.  After hitting rock bottom energy wise, we decided to sit down behind some rocks for lunch and recharge before climbing The Notch.



As we were eating, we were admiring the scenery around us and trying to figure out how we were going to get over the mountain in front of us.  We couldn't see a trail at all but knew that we had to cross somewhere.  Looking at the mountain Sander uttered the words "we'll it's definitely not there" while pointing at a snow capped section of the mountain.  We continued to eat in silence when I noticed two blobs on the snow in front of us.  Two blobs that were very people like.....two blobs that were hiking....two blobs forcing Sander to eat his words because that's exactly where we had to cross the mountain.

Now, everything that I read online said that the Notch is the toughest part of the hike but that's it's manageable as long as it's not entirely snowed in.  We had heard from other hikers that the Notch was mostly clear with only a small patch of snow to cross.  What NO ONE mentioned was how insanely steep the Notch is.  Not even the elevation map gave a really good indication of what we were to face up there.  When we booked the trip, we had no idea we had a scramble over loose gravel and ice ahead of us.

It was absolutely terrifying.  There were no giant boulders to get your footing.  It was soggy, muddy earth that made you slide with every step.  And then there was the snow.  It was icy, wet and 100% unstable.  The first step I took, I slid down about half a meter.  My heart was in my throat and I kept thinking in my head: "why the hell am I doing this!?".

Obviously, we didn't die, but it was probably one of the scariest things I've done....but also one of the most amazing things.  We were literally on top of a mountain!!!



It was so amazing.  Pictures really do not do it justice.  We enjoyed the view for about 2 minutes before coming back to reality.  Fact was that we still had about 12km to hike before we were at camp for the evening.  This is the part of the hike where I just wanted it to be over.  We had conquered the mountain and I was ready to set up camp and rest.  My knees were aching, my feet were aching, I had blisters on my hands from my trekking poles, I was cold and hungry and just overall done with walking for the day.  But despite all of this, we had to continue. 

So on we went.

It snowed, it rained, it sunned, it clouded and we walked and walked and walked and walked. 

We walked more. 

And more.

And more.



We were exhausted and had had enough, but, this is also the part where I fell in love with the hike.  It's really like running a race for me.  You want to give up. You're tired and each step is a challenge, but somehow you love all of it.  You feel energized and inspired despite wanting to collapse.  It's the nature.  The smell of the fresh air.  The sound of the wind.  The ache in your legs.  The thirst and the hunger.  It all fuels my soul.  Except for the mosquitoes.  They can just die for all I care.

Around 6pm we hit Tekarra campground and had dinner there while swatting furiously at the hundreds of mosquitoes (this is not an exaggeration).  We shivered through our dinner and hit the trail again for the last 5km to our campground for the night.

Despite our sense of hopelessness fueled by fatigue, we made it to our second campsite.  One thing we definitely learned on this trip was that packs really slow you down.  We set up our tent, hung our food in the bear-proof hangers and crashed at 10pm for the worst sleep ever.  It was so cold. We both slept in all of our layers with hot water bottles until our 4 o'clock alarm was waking us from this shivery slumber.

Yes, four in the morning.

Remember how we weren't very organized and didn't get a place in Jasper for the night before we started hiking? Well, that bit us in the butt for finishing the hike.  Normally, you leave your vehicle at the end and take the shuttle to the start of the hike.  Since we weren't starting early enough, we missed the shuttle and instead left our car at the beginning of the hike.  Ultimately, this meant hiking 10km down the mountain before 9am in order to catch the shuttle back to our car in time.  Doh.

I really thought it was going to be awful, but in the end, it was pretty nice.  I hadn't really slept since I was so cold, so I was glad to get up and moving again.  We hit the trail at 4:45 silent and exhausted, listening to music while meandering down the uninspiring fire road.  Between the heavy packs and insane distance the day before, the level gravel road was a nice reprieve.

We made it to the end by 7:30am and had breakfast at the trail head while waiting for the shuttle.  Eventually, more people trickled in that were starting the hike that day and it was really fun to chat with them.  We had just walked 45km across the Rocky Mountains.  I don't think there's anything as satisfying knowing you did it with your own sweat and determination.

In the end, I am so proud that we pulled through.  There was a time where we thought of taking one of the side paths to the highway and hitchhiking back to Jasper.  We were exhausted, hurting and we desperately wanted to give up and I am so glad we didn't.  It was worth every single blister and mosquito bite and I would do it again in a heartbeat.



Friday, September 23, 2016

Portugal 2016

In August, I had the opportunity to cross another country off my list and I spent 2 weeks exploring northern Portugal.

I don't even know where to begin with describing how awesome this vacation was, so instead I created another vlog to showcase some of the fun stuff we did.

Portugal is a wonderful country to visit (though I do not suggest trying to drive there from the Netherlands.  Google maps says 22 hours, but it's more like 32).  The cities are bustling with culture, the coast is gorgeous, the hiking is brilliant and there's cheap port, so what more do you need in life?! It's really hard to recapitulate an entire 2 week holiday in one post, but if I had to pick, there are two moments that stand out as my favorite moments of the trip.  First is dinner on the beach.  Half of the group decided to go to Coimbra (the old capital of Portugal), and the rest of us decided to have a relaxing evening at the campsite.  Instead, we ended up packing up our chairs, our drinks and ourselves and heading to the beach to watch the sunset.  One thing led to the next and before we knew it, we had ordered pizza and were having a fun night playing tag in the sand and visiting while watching the sun set.  That is until the group called us from Coimbra saying that their car was stuck in the parkade.  They had missed the operating hours and turns out their car was stuck there for the night. There was a brief moment where we thought we might have to send our DD to go get them, but luckily they managed to find someone who spoke Portugese and English and they called the company to come let them out.

The second evening that remains one of my favorite memories is when we were visiting Geres national park.  We were at a campsite that led right onto the riverbed and one night, we decided to have a campfire! We gathered up some twigs and driftwood and sat on the rocky shore enjoying each other's company all evening.  It was something so simple, but it was so relaxing and spontaneous.

Overall, it was a great holiday, so without further ado, I present to you a not-so-short photo/video summary of our trip to Portugal!








Sunday, September 4, 2016

Summer in Photos

2 months, 23000 km, new cities, brilliant hikes, many laughs, a few tears, a boatload of memories and I still haven't written a blog post about it!

I promised it would happen, and I'm going to hold myself to it.  In the meantime though, here is a 10 photo summary of what my summer included. :)












Sunday, May 15, 2016

One Year

I've been mostly absent from the blog lately, and there really is no other excuse than I've simply been living and loving life.

My parents were here for two weeks in April, which most definitely deserved its own blog post, but, alas, that did not happen.  We spent our time together catching up and showing them our life over here.  We laughed, we cried, we explored and we created new memories that I don't need to write out to remember.  Bottom line is that is was a wonderful visit and I am grateful that they made the trip over here.  Now when I talk about this or that, they have a mental image of what life over here looks like, and for me, that's one step closer to closing the feeling of distance associated with living across the world.

Yesterday, too, was a special day for us.

It was the night of the Ludovico Einaudi concert, which is the concert Sander got me tickets for for my birthday.  It was everything I expected and more.  My excitement could no longer be contained, so we headed over the the venue about 45 minutes earlier than needed.  I was vibrating with excitement and when 8:15pm finally rolled around, my heart was pounding with anticipation.  I don't think I've ever been so excited for a concert in my entire life.

Pre-concert excited selfie

I was curious if this was Ludovico's own piano or if he just plays
on the piano at the venue he is performing at


When Ludovico stepped on stage, I think my heart skipped a beat.  When the first note hit, my eyes welled up.  I kept saying I was going to bawl the entire concert, and I'm happy to report that wasn't the case, but I would be a liar if I didn't say that I teared up a bit.  I spent the better part of 3 hours completely transfixed by this musical genius. Every single song was beautiful and the acoustics were perfect.


Nothing to watch, but lot's to listen to! This was the song that originally got me hooked on
Ludovico Einaudi.  It was even better live.


Seeing Ludovico Einaudi was a dream come true, and it was the best birthday gift and the perfect way to celebrate being in the Netherlands for one year.  Yes, time flies!  One year ago, yesterday, Sander and I arrived at Schiphol with our 6 suitcases in hand and butterflies in our tummies.  It was definitely a milestone in our life together that was worth celebrating and I couldn't image a better way to do it.  



Friday, March 25, 2016

A New Personal Record

Last Sunday, I ran a 10km race.  I made a new personal record, and I kind of want to talk about it.  Deal with it.

I love running.  And if you were to ask me why, I really wouldn't be able to give you a straight answer. When you think of it, it's really not that fun.  You do the same motion over and over again, there are no rules, there are no points, and no one wins.  It's mostly a solitary sport, it's hard on the joints, and it makes you insanely hungry.  But somehow, even with all of these cons, it brings me an intense sense of satisfaction.  I think it boils down to pushing both my physical and mental limits.  Sometimes when I run, I feel strong and powerful and it motivates me to work even harder, but other times I feel weak and useless and though it sucks and is frustrating, it also pushes me to keep going.

Over the last year, I have had more of those weak and useless moments than the strong and powerful ones.  When we moved to the Netherlands last May, I immediately signed up for the Amsterdam half marathon.  That was my very first long distance race I ever ran, and I wanted to do it again not only for nostalgia, but also to see how 4 years of hard work can pay off.  Unfortunately, I didn't end up running the race due to a minor knee issue.  I needed some time off to rest and heal, and that forced me to put my goal on hold.  If there's something in this world I hate more than olives, bleu cheese and mustard, it's promising myself to do something and then not following through.  So, once my knee was feeling back to normal, I started training again and set my eye on the Utrecht half marathon.  But, as we all know, shit happens, and shortly after getting back into my training routine, I became quite ill with influenza, and again, I was forced to take the time to let myself heal.

Come January, I was back to being healthy and ready to tackle training once again.  What I didn't consider though was that over a period of 4 months, I had hardy ran at all.  My very first run of 2016 yielded the slowest pace I had seen in years and I was beyond frustrated. I actually considered just giving up on running entirely right then.  In the last year, it had brought me more disappointment than joy and I felt like it wasn't worth it anymore.  But like I said, I promised myself I would run another half marathon, and I wasn't going to give up, so I drew up a training schedule and began the hard work.

In the last couple months, my frustration has been transformed into determination and on Sunday, I finally saw the fruits of my labor as I ran the Utrecht marathon 10K event.  During the race, I felt so incredibly powerful and strong.  Whenever I wanted to give up, I just reminded myself that I didn't spend all those hours training to walk, and after 51 minutes and 4 seconds, I crossed the finish line. I had just ran the fastest 10km of my life, and though my muscles were cramping and I was so exhausted I could hardly talk,  I felt like I was on top of the world.

And that is what I love about running.  I love proving to myself that I can do these things.  I love that at the end of it all, it's a competition with myself, and that when I cross the finish line in record time I can feel a sense of accomplishment even though there were 53 other women who finished before me.  Perhaps I didn't win the race, but in a sense I did.  I won against myself and that's what inspires me to continue training for the half marathon I've been working towards.

I'll be running the 21.1 on May 22 in Leiden, and hopefully I'll have another success story to share with you!